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so today has been, interesting. i spent most of it debating and discussing Christianity on that facebook group. i also played with lana bug, you know, since she was around and stuff. lol.

then ryan came home and we goofed off, and went to staples to get printer paper. now were home and paying rent came, and that always puts me in a really bad mood, so im fighting an appearance by super biotch. i did the dishes, which, as much as i hate it, clams me down for some reason, and ryan is feeding bug.

i dont know. its been one of those days. i randomly got really pissed and started yelling at no one when i was in the kitchen. im just tired and hungry and generally cranky. i need to go to bed much earlier. and eat food during the day, even if bug whines the whole time im in the kitchen.

man im sick of hearing about global warming and pollution and saving the planet crap. God wont let the planet become a wasteland before the second coming, so im not too terribly worried about it.

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so ignore the time stamps on these blogs, theyre all wrong, everyone. its really 1am. im chillin on the sofa watching food network, eating oreos, and debating Christianity with a complete stranger via facbook group: "IM A CHRISTIAN....AND IM PROUD TO SAY IT!!"

i dont really want to get into the nitty gritty details because i honestly dont enjoy doing it. i remember being the angry atheist looking for a fight, so i dont like going back to that, but in the opposing shoes. mainly because i get super heated, and i really dont want to lose my cool and look like just another hipocrit ass hole close minded uninformed christian. im not great at debating.

so im super interested, and SUPER unqualified for the administrative assistant position at riv. ryan told me i should apply anyway, cause it couldnt hurt, and if for some crazy unbelievable wacky reason i got it, we would figure something out. (we only have one car, and ryan works 40hrs a week. and i dont even know what would go on with care for bug). so i guess once we get some printer paper, ill print out an app. and turn it in whenever we go to church this weekend.

so, anyone want to be friendssss? im finding myself lacking in a serious way, and i could use some i think. misty is coming up from kzoo saturday (allegedly) to pick up her glasses and take me out for the sushi she owes me from when i spotted her a while back. im doing a really crappy job of keeping in touch with my long lost best friend, currently residing in utah because shes mormon. and then i have my husband. and i think we could use a night out away from each other with friends sans baby.

ok well, i guess im going to bounch. i wish noel would post something new on walk the razor, im officially hooked to that and his website. probablu because i have nothing better to do but surf da net!!!

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sometimes.. i wish ryan and i could get married all over again, and have a real wedding. looking back, ours was kind of depressing. no professional photographer, crappy catering, i didnt like my dress, we both had trouble planning our parties, non of our extended family came, a lot of friends didnt either. it wasnt even done by a pastor, or in a church. it was poorly planned, and poorly decorated. there were no flowers, and barely even a send off. no music, or dancing. my dad didnt even want to walk me down the aisle. people who werent invited crashed the reception. a ton of people left before we even cut the cake. and the cake was cute, but it wasn't gorgeous. i dont honestly think anyone even had fun. then invitations were sloppy, the wedding night wasnt anything to brag about, and we didnt have a honeymoon. still havent.

my wedding ring doesnt fit me anymore. at all, it will barely go on and off my pinky.

i honestly get kind of sad when i think about it all. thats not how anyone should react when they think about their wedding.

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Have you ever noticed how bad commercials have gotten? twix commercials saying their product will help you lie, axe and tag will help you get laid (tag being worse because it markets to high school aged boys), the "morning tongue" for burger king. its ridiculous!

my favorite is the extendz commercial. they go on and on about how its scientifically developed, so all i think is of a bunch of scientists with small penis's trying to find a way to make them bigger! ha! that sure is a good use of that chemistry degree.

tv is just so bad. i mean, even kids cartoons are walking the line. like the channel "The N" for example. dont get me wrong, degrassi is a guilty pleasure.. but if i ever caught lana watching any of the n originals, she would be in so much trouble! i mean, this channel is marketed towards middle schoolers, and half of their originals have SO much inappropriate content. homosexuality, pre-marital sex, drug use, lying, cheating, sneaking around, coed living arrangements. and they sometimes cover serious topics, like violence, STDs, cancer, or rape, but kids dont see that the way they see the other stuff.

i mean, even disney movies. for example, that football movie with the rock in it. essentially it was about him having pre-marital sex with someone he didnt keep in touch with, and got them pregnant. and in enchanted, the guy had an emotional affair with gisel while in a relationship with someone he was planning to marry.

i dont know. i just see so many things in the media that are perceived as "normal" when they shouldnt be. divorce, infidelity, underage drinking, pre-marital sex, lying, homosexuality, using the Lords name in vain, swearing, breaking even the simplest of laws, disobedience, gluttony, vanity. the list goes on. its horrible.

oh well. the most i can do as a individual is keep lana shielded as much as i can i guess.
poor bug has a cold right now. her current nick name is booger-bucket.

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who thinks this is rude?
showing up at someones house unannounced and remarking on how they need to sweep their floors.

even if it wasn't supposed to be meant of offensive, seriously. what kind of person in their right mind would do that?
i know i know, turn the other cheek.

but there are SO many things, i was raised one way, and they are so totally opposite of that. how do you deal with these kinds of differences? it is so hard to just accept theyre completely different people and let EVERY single thing (which are a lot of things) just slide by without offending you.

oooo my goodness how do you do it?

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so if you didnt get my blog link from riverviews website, then you should check out www.walktherazor.com, i mean, you should check it anyway if you havent yet and you do attend riv.

so today was easter. and i say was because its currently 12:30am, so its technically no longer easter. but because im still awake, im still considering it to be easter. happy easter!

east brings out a lot of things. usually, spring. this year it was snow. this was the earliest easter since some time in the very early 1900's. and there wont be another this early for 80 more years.

easter is also a day a lot of people think about Christ. more so i think then Christmas, or at least in a different almost more serious way. even people who dont believe in it still acknowledge that He rose with zombie jokes.

it also brings out all the people who are "christians" when its convienent. they go to church all the MAJOR holidays, if it comes up in conversation, yeah, they believe. when they were little their parents had them baptized, or christened, or both. and the few times they go to church, they think, wow, this really touched my soul. but they dont make it a habit.

are you one of those people? because if you are, you need to rethink your relationship with God, and what easter really means.

silly baby

my 4 month old daughter, in the simplest of terms, is a freak. when she gets hungry she turns into a crazed lunatic. at the beginning of every feeding she turns her meal into a wrestling match. for the first half of her bottle she writhes around on my lap, twisting and turning and whining. she shoves the bottle so hard away from her i usually drop it. i know she hungry because she whines until i bring out the bottle, and when she sees it, she gets this look like i can only imagine a crack addict gets before smoking a rock. the nipple isnt clogged, the formulas not too hot. i honestly thinks she freaks because its not coming out fast enough. she is a piglet baby.

i guess most people experience the infantile wrestling match during diaper time. not with bug. she loves diaper time. she laughs and smiles and talks, its a blast. for her at least, dirty diapers arent exactly my favorite thing in the world. so i guess its a trade off.

ive been pretty lucky with her anyway. she never got colic, and shes been sleeping through the night since she was about 2 months old, and we very recently got her to stop sleeping swaddled.

so in the scheme of things the mealtime wrestling match isnt that big of a deal. as long as she doesnt making eating so difficult when she starts solids.

oh and shes been kicking me this entire time.

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13 going on 30 is a great movie. but whining babies are not so great.
my jaw hurts, and im not sure why, oh well.

ok well i totally dont have a whole lot to say, so im outie.

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i need a hobby. i toyed with the idea of doing mosaics, but im not sure i have the time. ive also considered buying rosetta stone, and learning a new language. once again though, no time. ryan says the first thing i need to accept about hobbies, is that there are no time restraints. i can do it whenever i feel like it, and stop whenever i need to. any ideas?