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oh man this sucks. i have (i figure) a viral rash. because i remember having it last year, and i think the year before too, around relatively the same time of season. its not contagious because ryan and lana are still rash free, and ive had it for about a week. but its so itchy and its getting worse-ish. its spread, but its not as itchy as it was at first. blahhh.

and ryan is stuck in a pot hole. hes having all kinds of stupid problems with his dumb PSP. its just getting worse and worse, and making him more and more agitated about everything all the time. and pile that nicely on top of his crap low paying hard labor dead end stupid effing job, equals a very strenuous relationship. and he is making so many excuses for not getting a new job! he doesnt want to go backwards, hes not qualified, michigans economy sucks, two part time jobs wouldnt be enough money, he wants to go back to school.

and now he's saying he doesnt know what it is God wants him to learn from this seriously difficult series of misfortunes, but hes about to give up. i told him that maybe hes just looking for jobs/careers in the wrong place. but he doesnt know where else to look.

ohh i dont even know what to do to make him see the bright side anymore! hes always negative and pissed off. his fuse has shrunken to a millimeter in length, and he explodes really quickly all the time. and that makes me nervous with the baby! i dont want her to end up with his horrible temper!

ohh i dont know. theres nothing on tv right now, and hes going to bed soon. i guess ill just surf till im tired.