29.

so im sitting here thinking, wow. there is NO one online, especially since its barely 11pm on a sunday night.
then i remembered, everyone is in finals.
so everyone is sleep cramming.

went to a cook out at the baldwins last night, rocked. and went to rivlink today at church. interesting. missie and i had talked about starting a stroller group for walking with small children, and the whole thing i think might have gotten twisted by a very go to kinda kid. oh well. after i started reading the booklet, i realized we really wont have time for stroller walking until it becomes more of a community group instead of the prototype small group. we shall see! the first meeting is next week. pot luck at the baldwins. should be interesting!

so now i am planning something ridiculously secretive. so much so i should even mention it here so ryan doesnt catch word of it. because he will just tell me it will never happen. he was bugging me all night about what i was doing online. but i aced all nonchalant like i was just surfing. even if this thing does happen, it wouldnt go down until 2010 anyway.

i think i need a hobby. SCRATCH that i definitely need a hobby. damn my add. no matter what i started, i would never ever ever ever ever in a million years finish it. i get bored and distracted way too easily. what i really need is a job and a car.

ok, gotta wrap up my super duper secret project and make ryans lunch.

28.

so since the average cost of a wedding is $33,339 in the township where i live, and the average cost of college is $25,508 for 4 years, my parents saved about $56,847 by my only going to one semester of school, and by only paying a few hundred for my wedding. ($1500 for school, and $500 for my wedding)

i hope they have a nice CD in the bank for lana for when she turns 18/21. whichever. a CD that will amount to $56,847 by the time she turns 18/21. to pay for school or to cushion her when shes looking for a job after school. or to pay for her wedding. whatever.

holy moly its windy as crap.
and its 75 in the house. we only have 3 fans in the entire house. for some reason it was a good idea to not put a fan light on the ceiling in the guest room/office thing. freaks.
now we need to go spend copious aounts of money on box/floor fans for the house, because were poor and cant afford the luxury of AC all summer long.

time to feed the scream machine.

27.

man i miss high school. everything was so much easier then! you always had saturdays & sundays off, two weeks at christmas, a week in the spring, 3 and 4 day weekends scattered here and there. snow days. and 3 mos off in the summer! you were only there 6hrs or so during the day, and once you hit sophomore year, you could start vocational schools, or lcc, or work release. best of all, you were still dependent on your parents! you didnt have to pay for your own food, or for rent/mortage. no gas or electric bills. no water or sewage dues. for a lot of kids no car insurance or car payments, or any mechanical fixes. you didnt have to worry about getting sick, or getting hurt, because you were covered by health insurance of some type.
and its not like the work was hard anyway. if i could go back, i could probably make straight a's. and join fun clubs, and do (more) sports.

i mean, yeah, the HS drama was stupid. he likes her but she doesnt like him, she likes that guy. so and so said that about such and such. rumors and what not all sucked. but i know people who managed to avoid all of that nonsense. i could avoid it too if i went back.

well, everything but math.

26.

oooooooh man. today has been a day. lana was at her whiniest. whine whine whine. and her whining, is just eeeeeeaaahh. its EEEEEEAAAHHHHHHHH. horrible. shes getting worse, i swear.

other than her whining, not a whole lot got accomplished today. went for a walk, thats pretty much it.

yesterday was fun! missie took me to lowes and horrocks. and i apparently got a tick while i was (im assuming) at horrocks. ryan had fun wiping it from existance. he smothered it in gun powder and let it burrrrrrn.

i got some cool new bath products. almost everything from the dove go fresh line in cucumber & green tea except the lotion and the bar soap. which i might get both of. because i LOOOVE it.

okie dokie, ryan is back from the bar, so i am going to finish this up bye saying
my house smells like a pool.
because my next door neighbor has been power washing, and weve had our windows open.

it makes me want toSWIM!

25.

today was rather productive. i went to meijer, and delivered a letter and an article and a packet to the inlaws, went to the bank, moved stuff in the garage, found and began installing a screen for the french doors, went for a nice walk, dropped off & picked up ryan from work, designed a cook landscape for the backyard we will never do, picked out some perennials to plant next year online. i should have gone to video to go, but oh well. i can do that tomorrow or saturday when ryan and his dad are putting screens in the windows.. finally!

ok well i need to make ryans lunch, and go to bed. because i have been exhausted, and i need more sleep.

24.

so ryan has no idea what to do for mothers day. so i had to make him a list. here is my list:
(listed in no particular order)
1. Rollerblades
2. AE giftcard/new jeans
3. Sushi/UKAI dinner & movie date
4. Lugnuts tickets
5. No diaper changes*
6. No baby feedings*
7. Sleep in*
8. Family Portriats
9. Paid maid for 1 day
10. Target giftcard/ t-shirts
11. YMCA membership
12. New car
13. Grill
14. Redwings (Chelios 24) Jersey
15. Home pedicure kit
16. 30 minute massage*

(*FREE and expected for the day.)

so really i only want like, one thing from that list, no including things with a star. ryan thinks i should see if paige wants to go to get pedicures, since i still have that gift card, but i think i want to wait to get that until before we go to the cottage so they look nice that week.

ryan applied to two places today, both of which he knows people in the higher ups. so hopefully he gets an interview/ job offer from one of them. preferably the one in eaton rapids, because he could actually do some artistic work in it.

man i gotta clean the house and i gotta plant some bulbs, soon. people perennials are alreay grown and blooming with flowers. if i dont get a move on, im not gonna see any flowers this season. which isnt a big deal i guess. i can get some perennials to plant at the end of summer or something, and have pretty flowers next year.

and all the seeds i planted in doors are shooting up like crazy, and are going to need to be transplanted soon. which means we need to get the rototiller out, and weed and make a fence and what not.

ok im goin to go to the red wings website and pretend im going to get to go to a game again before december. and PRAY they win this game. 3-1 at the beginning of the 3rd. grr.

23.

so ryan and i were talking he other day, and he said "baby smiles are the best! dont you think?" and i agreed.
but then yesterday, bug was sitting in her bouncy seat, playing with a toy, or the remote of something, and she just ripped a huge fart. and didnt even seem to notice.

so thats when i decided that, although baby smiles are fantastic, baby farts are truly the best.

i got an email back from spacebags telling me if i wanted, i could send them the space bag logo from the bag, and a reason why it was defective, and they would replace it. but thats not what i want. i want my money back! not more defective products. but ryan said everyone he has talked to are really surprised we are having problems with them. so i dont know. ill decide tomorrow.

i made of list of things i would like for mothers day. of everything, it looks like ryan is shooting for the new (used) car. he found a 2001 aztek in lansing with 90,000mi, in mint condition for $5,500. we would have to get a loan like, this week though.

i think it would be fun to like, go get some coffee, or even go crazy and go get a pedicure with someone on or around mothers day, ya know? take some time off from the family and just chill with someone! that would be cool.

ok well, i need to find some food or something.

22.

my name is earl is a fantastic show.
"do snakes have hair?"
"they do when they're ferrets."

i dont have a whole lot to blog about. i got my WIC problem resolved today. i guess they updated codes, but then didnt change what it was supposed to be. so not only does lana have her formula, but she is also learning how to use a sippy cup! which is cool, because that means she can feed herself, while i do things.

and im totally signing up to be a nursery worker, and a drama volunteer at my church! woot woot. i think it will be fun!

ok well, im going to check some stuff and then finish this episode, and then go to bed.

21.

oh man lana bug is 5 mos old today! its crazy. i seriously cant believe it. i also cant believe how many ridiculous times star wars has been on spike. bleh. i used to really like star wars, but its been pretty much the only thing playing on the TV beside gta.

stupid WIC. never go on WIC. ever. it is the biggest hassel EVER. there are so many stupid particulars. and to top it off, they screwed up my reload today. i was set up to receive nine 12.9oz cans of enfamil a.r. plus lipil. so i go to meijer to get it today, and it wouldnt work. so i come home and i go online, and i set up my online account, to figure out why it wouldnt work, and stupid WIC people set me up to receive 113oz JFK formula. (which is formula for ages 1-5yrs.) so i call customer service, and they tell me i have to go into the WIC office. but lana needs more formula pretty much tomorrow. and i have no transportation to the office before 5 until thursday.

so like i said, stupid WIC.

and ive been super cold lately and i dont know why. i want it to be back in the 60's tomorrow, and i want the screens to magically appear in the windows so i can open all the windows and enjoy the wonderful weather, and the massive drop in heating/cooling bills.

one good thing that came from watching star wars is that i think lana would make an adorable ewok for halloween.

90% of all statistics can be made to say anything 50% of the time.
man im bored and tired. i think i should go to bed early tonight. i have to switch out ryans laundry, make his lunch, and pray lana doesnt wake up. then i can go to bed.

20.

stupid freaking space bags.
so i go online to order some space bags.
im checking out, and they're like, hey, buy some more for $5.
so i do. and then i get raped up the but with extra charges.
and i cant figure out how to cancel my order.

so they come today, and ryan was all excited cause he thought they were cool things.
and i use one of the hanging bags to compress my wedding dress and ryans suit & dress clothes.
cool.
so i take a large size bag to fill with lana's 0-3 mo clothes shes grown out of.
im zipping the thing shut,
and it FREAKING rips.
useless. so it wont vacuum seal with a hole.
pissy me.

then ryan goes to get wendys for dinner. and we always have issues with that location. but this time the fries were so UNDER cooked, they werent even hot all the way through. so i was SUPER mad, because the whole reason i wanted wendy's was because i wanted lots of fries.

so i was so annoyed i wanted to take the bag of fries back there and throw them and explode on the staff about how ridiculously useless everyone there is, and how it isnt that hard to drop fries, set the timer, and take the fries out when the timer goes off. especially since ryan said they were busy at all.

and ryan and i have been at each others throats for a few days now. im pmsing, and theres a bit of tension between us, of the husband and wifey kind.

and the DVR didnt freaking record scrubs. ive been dying for a new episode, and i go to find it on the dvr, and its not there. its set to record, but it didnt happen. SO MAD. there isnt a repeat of it on that i can find in the next few days either.

im just counting down to the week at the cottage in july. thats pretty much the greatest week of the year. and lana bug will be about 8mos old, so it will be even more fun. we wont be there for the coast guard festival, but if ryan can make warehouse on the 4th, we might be able to make it up there in time for fireworks that night.

oh well. i need to try and go to bed or something. nothing on tv, lana's asleep, ryans in bed. it wouldnt hurt to get a good long nights sleep for once.

19.

today was a good day, until. but we will get to until later, if at all.

lana let me sleep in again this morning, and practiced sitting up solo. shes getting really good! hung around and ate some soup, did some dishes, planted my seeds to start growing indoors before it gets warm out, finally. and then we took a trip to walmart! and that was fun.

it was a very productive shopping trip.

then we got home, and unpacked, and i fed bug, and ryan got back!
and i had a good convo with misty.
then "until" happened

then i had a good talk with missie.
then we ate pizza, fed the baby.
and ryan and lana fell asleep.

so i put them both to bed.
and now im here. bored.

but im talking to missie again, so im not totally bored!

18.

today was a good day. lana let me sleep in till nearly 11, and then she was in good spirits for a while. then ryan got home at like 1:30i. then i cleaned a bunch. then missie and her kids, and her cousin came over, and we all went for a walk around the neighborhood. then we hung out while eva ate. then they left! and it was a very good time. then ryan started to make dinner, but im possessive about the kitchen, so i took over. then we ate. and now were looking at cars on ebay and watching family guy. and ryans going to bed a half hour ago. i think hes stalling. lana bug is asleep, but not ready for her crib. and im chillin wishing i had brownie mix cause brownies sound damn good. im going to have to get some next time i got grocery shopping. hopefully ryan and dan will carpool tomorrow so i can have car access.

anywho. i dont really think i have an anywho. my cousins wedding is next month in traverse! it should be fun, were going to get a hotel room overlooking the beach and everything.

the neighborhood yard sale is the 25th and 26th if anyone wants to come out and take a looksee. i think we might have a table, but im not sure. ryan and i didnt get a chance to poke around in the basement really. maybe ill look later tonight. i dunno. i think i can think of a few things off the top of my head maybe. we would have to go get price tag stickers and get like $40 into change and stuff. and borrow tables from his parents. ugh. i dunno.

ok im going to change channels until i lose my mind. and then pack ryans lunch. and then try to put the baby down.

17.

ok this one is fo' real.

google your first name (Sydney)
google your last name (Sandy)

#1 Website Sydney is the wikipedia entry for Sydney, Australia
(every website on the first page is about Sydney, Australia)
#1 Image Sydney is the Sydney Harbor Bridge






#2 Image Sydney is the Sydney Opera House







#1 Website Sandy is www.iwantsandy.com, which is an email assistant program i guess.
#2 Website Sandy is www.sandy.utah.gov, Sandy, Utah apparently.

#1 Image Sandy is a chick with a sandy butt at the beach







#2 Image Sandy is pictures of lace underwear, or something. I guess its a piece of artwork?









ok that wasnt nearly as exciting as i thought it would be. i need to work on pictures and copy missie's awesome slideshow. and work on lanas baby book.

16.

this blog is a test to see if missie helped with my timestamp issue.

wooooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooooooo

15.

holy crap. i am so pissed. SO PISSED.
there are these two random bags of trash sitting on our counter. they're usually where our room mate puts his stuff, so i figured they were his. but he never moved them. so this morning, i was annoyed they were still there, so i looked into one of them. and there was a really old bottle of ryans prescription pills from 4 years ago. and curlers i recognized from somewhere.. hmm..


so i called ryan, and asked him, what are these bags of trash on the counter? and he said he thought they were dans. and i said, no there are feminine pads and your pills. and he said;

Oh, well maybe my mom brought it over when we weren't here.

can you see yet why i am pissed? this isnt the fist time they have brought their old junk and trash over here, without telling us they are, or even asking if we want/need it.

i dont know. maybe there is a giant sign over our house invisible only to me that says "Goodwill" or "Salvation Army" or "DUMP YOUR CRAP HERE"

for 1. they dont even give us the opportunity to say no we dont want that because they dont ask, and they do it when were not around. and this isnt the first time either!!!! when we moved in there was this weird useless desk thing but with no where to sit sitting in our den, that i recognized from his parents garage, because it had a yard sale price sticker on it. they gave it to us because they couldnt sell it and didnt want it. but NEITHER DO WE!

for 2. his mom came over to our house, and let herself inside when no one was here.
im just going to stop there with that one.

so not only do they keep buying crap for the house without asking if we like it or want it or need it, and then complaining when we dont use it, but theyre bringing theyre trash over here too, without asking if we need it.

moral of the story:
living within WALKING DISTANCE to your in-laws is a VERY VERY VERY bad idea.
im getting annoyed enough to even go so far as to saying living within DRIVING distance is a bad idea.

ugh.
ok time to eat & start a potroast.

14.

so a week or so ago, i was think, man, iron chef should do an episode with coffee as the secret ingredient. and low and behold, tonights episode has coffee as the secret ingredient. this just adds to my theory that im being stalked. or at least my ideas are. freaking weird. i should get involved in pop culture and start getting paid for the ideas everyone's stealing from me.

omgosh i want the scotch brite cook top cleaner.
and apparently termites drive cool cars.

one of our electronics in the entertainment system is making a horrible high pitch ringing alarm sound. i think it might be the tv. yep, its the tv. i hope theres nothing wrong with it, because im pretty sure ryan didnt pay for the insurance package on it. and we just got that thing not very long ago.

so lana had a blast today at rivbabies! im so proud of her for being such a big girl and not getting upset! and she totally zonked out in the car on the way home, and when she woke up she was still happy and talking and laughing! she was great. i cant wait until she gets used to it and talks and laughs and stuff around other people. being around the other babies will help her be more interested in learning how to get around independently too.

mm hungry. i love steak, which is what we had for dinner, but it never keeps me full! so now i need to go find something to eat. maybe some soup.. yum.

i love the weather because i can turn the heat off all day long, and not run the air yet either. so our gas bill will be LOW. especially since its still 70 in here because it got like, 74 during the day. and since we dont have any screens in any windows, we cant open them yet. i might not have to turn the heat on at all tonight. hopefully this summer we will be able to save a good amount of money by very very very rarely running the AC. we can stick the window unit in lana's room and turn that on if its too hot for her to stand. we need to get a temperature thing for her room to make sure its comfortable in there all summer.

omgosh i want that freaking scotch brite cook top cleaner!!!!!!!!!
our stove top gets amazingly filthy every day. ten minutes after i clean it, it looks exactly the same.

i want a dog :(
and a grill so we can have BBQ's and game & movie nights with people.
and more toys & baby proofing so my house will be child friendly if friends with children visit.

ok, to the soup mobile, batman!

13.

omgosh i am ridiculous. i cannot NOT talk to ryan if im around him, no matter what the situation. usually i go to bed a few hours after him, and im all tired and exhausted, and hes so deep into dreamland he doesnt even wake up when the baby starts yelling for her pacifier. so i fall asleep.

not tonight though. he bugs me to go to bed at the same time as him, so i do. and at first im tired. but then i think about how missie and her husband are going on a belated honeymoon to do missionary work in mexico. so i bring it up to him. and we talk about it. and i keep talking about it.
so he says "you really dont want me to go to work tomorrow, do you?"
so i say "sorry, ill stop talking."
then another thing i want to ask him about comes up.
but i dont want to keep him up.
then another.
and another.
and things i want to talk to him about just keep piling up in my head, driving me crazy, waking me up more and more.

so finally i get up. and he asks me where im going
so i say "im going downstairs because i cant sleep and i keep thinking of things to talk to you about, and you need to go to sleep."

so to keep my sanity, i came downstairs, turned on the TV, and am back to where i usually am at 12:30am.

anyway. he took the USPS exam today, and he thinks he did pretty well. its for a temp. rural carrier position, and he out that hes interested in delivering to grand ledge, dimondale and potterville. so it would be cool if he didnt get that job.

ok so im going to watch reruns and think about the ridiculous amount of cleaning i have to do tomorrow since our room mates friend is staying on our couch bed tomorrow night. and i dont want to look like a gigantic slob family.

12.

i love shows like law and order because they say all the stories are fictional, but every now and then you see an episode, and youre like WAIT! there was a story very similar to that on the news that i remember! like the one right now, about a toy mogul who was accused of molesting a kid and paying off his family, and has a treasure room with costumes for kids.

what does THAT remind you of?? hah. michael jackson.. crazy television.

anywho. i sent noel an email about a cool program the church could start. it began when ryan joked about starting a small group at riv called "cooking for Christ", and that reminded me of the NEST program my old church used to do where they would provide overnight shelter and breakfast/dinner for the homeless for a week.

granted, riv doesnt have a kitchen, and there aret a lot of homeless in the holt south lansing area, but there are low income families would could probably use Christ in their lives, and im sure there are plenty of people there who would be willing to cook large dishes for 7 nights of dinners to bring in a pot luck style to the church for these low income families.

i dunno. i think i would like to join/start a small group at riv, but i dont really know where to go from there.
we also want to start our own business. but once again, dont really know how to go from there.

any suggestions, on either??

11.

oh man this sucks. i have (i figure) a viral rash. because i remember having it last year, and i think the year before too, around relatively the same time of season. its not contagious because ryan and lana are still rash free, and ive had it for about a week. but its so itchy and its getting worse-ish. its spread, but its not as itchy as it was at first. blahhh.

and ryan is stuck in a pot hole. hes having all kinds of stupid problems with his dumb PSP. its just getting worse and worse, and making him more and more agitated about everything all the time. and pile that nicely on top of his crap low paying hard labor dead end stupid effing job, equals a very strenuous relationship. and he is making so many excuses for not getting a new job! he doesnt want to go backwards, hes not qualified, michigans economy sucks, two part time jobs wouldnt be enough money, he wants to go back to school.

and now he's saying he doesnt know what it is God wants him to learn from this seriously difficult series of misfortunes, but hes about to give up. i told him that maybe hes just looking for jobs/careers in the wrong place. but he doesnt know where else to look.

ohh i dont even know what to do to make him see the bright side anymore! hes always negative and pissed off. his fuse has shrunken to a millimeter in length, and he explodes really quickly all the time. and that makes me nervous with the baby! i dont want her to end up with his horrible temper!

ohh i dont know. theres nothing on tv right now, and hes going to bed soon. i guess ill just surf till im tired.

10.

we need a bed frame with a head board and foot board. we have a memory foam pad on our mattress, and its always sliding off the foot of the bed. and our pillows always somehow manage to fall into the abyss between the mattress and wall.

anywho. i dont really have a whole lot to blog about. all my shows are starting to slowly reair with new episodes. its pretty exciting. which is sort of sad that im excited about tv shows. oh boy.

yeah i dont have anything to talk about!